I took Pixel out for her to go to the bathroom and she started pulling me. Instantly I thought that my walk with God is very similar to walking a dog. The question is…is it the correct way to walk? I feel like I am in control of my life just as I am in control of the walk. My life = the walking of the dog. This feeling of control is given to us by God who gave us free will. So I walk Pixel but even though I am in control it is she who leads. God is represented by Pixel, heh. So I am in control of my life/walk and God/Pixel is leading. She was pulling me but the funny thing is, I chose where we would go. So God/Pixel is leading my walk even though I am choosing where to go. It brings me back to when we would walk Gracie, she would always try to pull me off of my feet but I still lead. It was like she knew where I wanted to go. She was in front but I would still lead. It almost doesn’t make sense. This is how I feel God may be. I make the decisions, I live my life but I have God in the front to lead me while I walk even though I choose the path. Does this make sense? Is this how it should be or should God be leading and I in the front? Somehow I think that defeats the purpose of free will.
Archive for March, 2008
I hate it when I waste money. Most of the time I don’t even know I’m doing it. For example, we had to take Pixel to the vet this weekend for her rabies shots and some other vaccinations and we were told that it’s a good idea to get flea pills and also de-worming pills, so we decided to get both. I had no idea that our bill would come to $241.79. I did a quick run down of the receipt and the stupid flea stuff was $80!! That was only for 6 months worth too. Luckily we had the money. I’m not one to try return stuff so I just sucked it up and learned my lesson. This isn’t the first time I’ve wasted money before though. I can’t remember off hand the other situations but I’ve had that feeling before. A feeling like…oooww, nothing I can do about it. But I just feel then that I have to let it out and tell the world how bad it sucks. I’ll find myself comparing the price of the money waster to things I could have actually bought with it. After the vet situation I was thinking “man, I could have bought an xbox game and still had money left over” but instead I got some flea stuff that I won’t even have to use. Can’t you get that at Wal-Mart for $5? Anyways, back to the subject, I guess everyone goes through life wasting some big wad of money here and there. I’m not sure what we learn from it other than it sucks because most of the time we don’t even know what’s about to happen. Well, you know what, now that I think about it more, I think it teaches us that we can’t rely on money so much. Maybe it’s a way for the Lord to keep us in line and show us not to depend on it so much.
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